There is oneness with the sword, and oneness with yourself. Having identified things that are important to you, having made a commitment to certain things, how do you make it work together?
Nature has made us complex creatures. It is therefore not surprising that we have complex desires. You should not deny your instincts, just because they are complex, contradicting. It is your responsibility the find the unity of desires. This is no easy task; But I can tell you two things. First, you can’t ignore important persistent desires; Even if they appear contradictory, when you feel something is important it has a role to play. Second, for as long as you don’t put everything in its natural role and proportion, you will suffer.
Learn from living creatures. Organs in the body serve multiple functions. All functions contribute to sustaining life. You nose allows you to breathe and to sense odors; You can also pick your nose - double utility. Your mouth allows you to speak, eat, and also breathe; Your skin protects you, allows you to sense, transpire, and also to breathe.
Machines are different. Every part of a machine serves a single function. Machines break; They require human maintenance, because they are fragile. Organisms repair themselves; They are more versatile and robust.
Therefore, it is better to think of your life as organism, not machine. Every organ supports other organs, and it can exist because it gets support. The more unity you find, the more adaptable and resilient you become. What is the distinction between one thing, one desire - and many things, many desires? The distinction is that many things act in many different directions. One thing acts with a single force, in one direction. It becomes an organism.
Some people ignore the totality of who they are, they insist on being only a part of who they are. They want to super-specialize, like some insect hive; It is better working to figure out how it all fits together. This feels better to me.
Researchers in computer science use simulated evolution to find good solutions to problems. These algorithms often start with very random solutions. They won't make much sense at first; Later, only the viable solutions „survive”. The importance of the initial steps is in the freedom and randomness. Without it, there is a danger of converging too early, converging on a small part of the solution. Losing all diversity, and being stuck in a dead-end.